This blog is severely lacking excitement and love these days. But I am not giving up on it because I want to keep my personal life and craft life seperate to some degree. And one day I'll have babies and want to post a million pictures online and it'll be on this blog that I do it. SO until babies enter my life, I will continue to post boring short entries every few months.
Here are some of my random thoughts of late.
1. At work today, one of my co-workers was really grumpy. She wasn't snappy or anything, just gave short answers, didn't smile, wasn't her usual chirpy self, that sort of thing. I asked one of my other co-workers if they knew what was up. She had been up all night, listening to her daughter and her 'partner' (sorry but I just hate how people misuse that word) yelling. Let's keep in mind, her daughter is over 8 months pregnant and really could do without the stress right now. I could go on and on about the situation, but at the end of the day, it made me grateful.
I fasted in gratitude last Sunday. In gratitude that I was sent to a family that had the Gospel in it. I'll be the first to admit that I got it easy - and I really do think that being born into the Gospel is MUCH easier then being born into a world of confusion and sin.
So I am grateful to have a family that loves each other. We have our moments at times, but as a whole we all get along like a house on fire. We can mock each other and still be laughing our heads off. We don't yell at each other. We're never "I'm not talking to her at the moment". We do our best to work as a team.
2. I am really struggling in my calling. It is hard work and I find it difficult to know what to do and what not to do, what to say and what not to say, help someone, or not help someone. You get the picture. I am also incredibly blunt and I only know the colours black and white. There is NO grey in my colour palette. This is a result of point number one - my family.
I love the way I am, but let's be honest folks, I'm probably overbearing and people don't like me half the time.
But one thing that I struggle with the absolute most when it comes to my calling is the lack of respect youth have for their leaders. Last night I had to put together a combined activity in 20 mins. I ran games. No one listened to my voice. (Prepare yourself for the vent). I was standing in the middle of the room ON A CHAIR, yelling out instructions. Do you think ANYONE moved? No, they just looked at me and continued to talk. I actually had to SCREAM over the top of their voices. It was disgusting.
Anyway, I'm at a loss of what to do. I do my best to look out for them, I speak nicely to them, I ask about how they're doing, I drive them around, I joke around with them, I teach them, I feed them, I respect them, I pray for them, I DREAM about them.
Maybe I shouldn't be a parent.
3. I'm severely overweight. I love lemonade. I love late night snacks. I dislike to cook, so most meals consist of buying out or easy meals which are generally unhealthy. I hate exercise.
I'm about to go overseas to purchase an entire new wardrobe. In the size that I don't want to be.
Maybe I shouldn't buy any new clothes.
It has to change.
And that's all I have time for. What an enlightening post. Sigh.
